Bite my lip and close my eyes....

It is currently 3:18 am. I am sitting in bed unable to sleep.

My wife is out of town attending the baptism of our first niece in DC. She left last night along with her sister and parents. I am home with the 4 kids, 2 dogs, 2 cats and 8 koi. My wife will not be back until Sunday night. Even though we never seem to go to bed at the same time, I find it hard to sleep alone in our bed when she is not home. I don't necessarily sit here and worry, I just can't sleep.

So I decided to crush the Internet for anything to bore me to sleep. Hasn't worked yet.

So instead I hit a few old spaces I used to visit. I should say tried to hit a few old spaces. It seems more and more are going to private spaces or have moved on to somewhere else.

Is there some spaces flu going around causing people to lock themselves behind the " Access Denied " screen? Or am I being blacklisted because I don't bring a desert to the spaces picnic? Did I say something to offend another spaces person?

No, I know I didn't because there is no point in getting in some drama on the Internet. This big ol wonderful place that feeds us so much information is the biggest bunch of lies and deception. Almost anything can be said here with just about no repercussions. This is the land of make believe. Pretend to be what you always wanted to be.

Blogs allow us to give the world a view of us that might not be true to life. If no one truly knows us that reads it, then no one knows any better. The world is becoming this way. Besides blogs, there are many other ways to be who you are not. Chat rooms, online games, instant messaging, online dating - all of these things are by-products of technology that just allow us to deceive easily.

However, with the same flow of zeros and ones, it allows us to be who we actually are. Some animosity allows us to be free in our thoughts and feelings. It is relieving to be able to say how you feel about something with complete honesty. You can voice your opinion to as many people as you can find to read it without having to worry about falling off the soapbox or getting over stage-fright.

I wonder if there will ever be a way to find out what is really true out there. I hope that not everything I read out here is just put up to deceive me. I am already too untrusting of the world to begin with. I don't need to be learning even the internet lies to me too.