Fitter Happier

So it has been a few days since I decided to accept the change. I am noticing the effects of the change and they so far have been good. I am still not sure if I am confortable with how I feel now though. It feels almost not natural, in the sense that I have not felt like this for as long as I can remember.

Not new, but maybe improved

The morning started like any other. Restless anticipation to wake up. The minutes slowly changing to when it won't be considered odd to be getting up. Move about the house without disturbing anyone. Even the dog doesn't notice me. Showered, shaved and dressed and I look at the small change about to happen in my life.

Let the change begin.

Flies are buzzing round my head
Vultures circling the dead
Picking up every last crumb
The big fish eat the little ones
The big fish eat the little ones
Not my problem, give me some

You can try the best you can
If you try the best you can
The best you can is good enough
If you try the best you can
If you try the best you can
The best you can is good enough

This one's optimistic
This one went to market
This one just came out of the swamp
This one dropped a payload
Fodder for the animals
Living on animal farm

If you try the best you can
If you try the best you can
The best you can is good enough
If you try the best you can
If you try the best you can
The best you can is good enough

I'd really like to help you, man
I'd really like to help you, man
Nervous messed up marionettes
Floating around on a prison ship

If you try the best you can
If you try the best you can
The best you can is good enough
If you can try the best you can
If you try the best you can
Dinosaurs roaming the Earth
Dinosaurs roaming the Earth
Dinosaurs roaming the Earth

I'm not a mountain, no.... you move me

I am trying to loosen the grasp my insecurities have on my trust. I am looking at the world thru different eyes. Ones that do not have the taint of a jaded view. My feelings can be still be genuine. I can see the unconditional love I have overlooked.


This morning as I was getting dressed, my youngest walked down the hall with her hair messy from sleeping and her lower lip sticking out pouting. I asked what was wrong a few times and she finally pointed to the front door. I asked if she wanted me to go to the front door and she nodded yes. We walked over and I opened it. She then asked, "What are you doing?" I replied, "Getting ready for work." and she continued to pout. As I was tying my shoes, my wife came into the room and said, "she says she is going to miss you"