small steps towards something

The people around him didn't see the humor in what they were watching. Knowing this just made him chuckle a little more in his head. He didn't feel superior or better, just slightly enlightened. He saw them all as lemmings, mindless and following a predetermined course. Now he just waited for them to jump.

Sponsered by the color blue, er purple, more like indigo.

Have you ever just sat and talked with someone and had the funny sensation that if you weren't already, you could be married to this person?

Not that I am looking for an affair or a replacement, but I have found someone I can talk to and enjoy being around. You may be saying to yourself that it is normal to have this feeling, you have a friend idiot! But since I have sorta isolated myself from becoming friendly with people I am not sure how to be when I find somoene I think would be a good friend. It reminds me of dating in a way, trying to learn about the person, finding those common grounds to talk about and share. Learning that silence is not alwasy awkward. How do you get closer to someone without being misleading or stupid(like omg he is so stupid to think I would be interested in him) esp when I am not interested in having more than a friend. How do I say I like you as a freind without sounding like I am dumping something that wasn't there? Am I being so overly dramatic over nothing?!!? Blah!!



I am bored and can't sleep just yet. I am having a core dump.


btw I was told she said I had a nice butt.

0.0

So much has been going on, but it almost seems like nothing. It is the busy work of being a parent, the responsibility of managing a department and trying to be a person that has me all tied up and seemingly going nowhere. So I once again have been reading and such, but have not been posting.

I have been slacking - I used to ride my bike an average of 150-200 miles a week just last year, but I haven't touched it since last sept. So I am feeling not as active as before. Should I throw on the cycling shorts and shoes and try to get it moving again?

I dunno what is keeping me in this "stuck" mood - but I am here.

Tired and just tired.