Silent Reality

Reality isn't absolute
Facets show different versions
My reality is a product of the events in my life - seldom optomistic
Other's reality is a product of events in their lives - varied outlook
To try and understand each other's reality is not easy
Never expected it to be
Reality is not for the weak minded
Please stand by - we are adjusting your reality

Title of entry

For a long time I have
The strength was there
My world was controlled
That was my pride
Now my strength has failed
I will become dependent
How can I have pride
Removed
Isolated
What I am
What I was
What now

Sometimes
Only sometimes
I question everything
And I'm the first to admit
If you catch me in a mood like this
I can be tiring

Even embarassing
But you must
Feel the same
When you look around
You can't tell me honestly
You're happy with what you see
Oh sometimes
Only sometimes
You must be...
You must be...
As embarassing as me
Sometimes

-MLGore

It doesn't matter two

As I lay here with you
The shame lies with us
We talk of love and trust
That doesn't matter

Though we may be the last in the world
We feel like pioneers
Telling hopes and fears
To one another

And oh what a feeling
Inside of me
It might last for an hour
Wounds aren't healing
Inside of me
Though it feels good now
I know it's only for now

The feeling is intense
You grip me with your eyes
And then I realise
It doesn't matter

-MLGore

Questionable Content

Prying eyes see things that make us wonder if things are happening. What should I do with the information I think I have. Is it worth the confrontation? Should it be overlooked for a greater good? The acquisition of the knowledge was not clean, but it is still a representaion of a possbile deeper threat. What will save me from my own mind? My mind won't let me find that answer. Stupid mind.

Is it all in my head

Main Entry: para·noia
Pronunciation: "par-a-noi-a"
Function: noun
1 : a psychosis characterized by systematized delusions of persecution or grandeur usually without hallucinations
2 : a tendency on the part of an individual or group toward excessive or irrational suspiciousness and distrustfulness of others


I might get back to this a little later.

Later,
Paranoia has caused me to investigate somethings around me. Is it being sneaky or being cautious? Will what I find alleviate or exagerate my concerns. Why do I put myself through this? What will I gain or lose? What can I do?

Wet and wild

I live in southern Louisiana. A place that has 2 seasons - Lovebug season and Hurricane season. Neither one I enjoy. Lovebug season sucks because they are everywhere and seem to only live long enough to splattter all across the front of my car. Thousands of them die each day I drive to work and back. But with all my efforts to perform lovebug genocide, they just keep coming back each year.

The other season is worse. Hurricane season puts panic in the lives of those who do not originate from here. This panic comes from the slow buildup of the hurricane. You see, hurricanes just don't happen, then move slowly across the water. They never have a predetermined course. They often change their direction several times before eventually coming ashore. With all the slow events that take several days to carry out the media warns us of all the terrible things that could happen. How we must evaucate now to avoid the mass exodus from the cities. It is these scare tactics that make evacuations so hard to do. The hurricane does not come barreling in at some unfathomable speed, it comes in at 10-15 miles an hour. Just escape people if you feel you must, but just not all at once.

Hurricanes can be a very distructive force. People can be injured and may possibly die from hurricane related accidents. But I think that if we took precautions and did not do stupid things, then less would be a casualty of a hurricane. I really don't need the home footage of the winds blowing the the signs around while you watch from the deck of your 20' boat in the middle of the hurricane.